Ha ha...I know there are better things to do than to read the ramblings of this cancer has-been...and I am happy to be a cancer has-been! My oncologist is insistent with me on that point - any time I enter into his office with my giant list of questions derived from hours upon hours of Bill's research, he laughs at me and tells me "You're cured!"
Anyway, I'm a happy girl, despite more rumblings in cancer world (again, not mine, but still, it's troubling). How can I not be happy? I still have my wonderful family, and extended family. I have no more surgeries on the horizon and my hair is growing (albeit slowly, and darkly). I had a great weekend at my parent's cottage - full of nature walks and impromptu sledding down hills on those walks (I even went down a hill with Dagny on the sled, and then once with crazy Hope!). I am fully back to all motherhood activities.
I'm even filling in my extra moments dreaming of what I can do next, which was something I couldn't really do much of last year. Something about over 61 doctors' appointments - driving to them, waiting for them, recovering from them - that sucked up a lot of dreaming time. It was a dream to even feel normal during those 11 months...and hard to think past that except to plan for how to get through the next round.
Anyway, it is great to be alive, friends and family! I know hard stuff is always around another corner, but for now I am going to just relish the present. Here's a little quote from Kung Fu Panda (probably from somewhere else first, but Kung Fu Panda is our latest Lucken obsession): The past is history, the future is a mystery, but today is a gift. That's why they call it the present.